I'M TIRED

Adetola took an unnecessary long break. She probably lost views and fans over the time she took a break. She very much likely thought her writing career was nearing it's end and that she was going to give up on writing like she did on the other productive hobbies she had. Well, she didn't give up and she has some unpublished drafts in her sketch book.

She was just tired and couldn't keep up with so many things, now she thinks a schedule and an accountability partner would do the trick in reviving her consistency, making her writing a priority for her.

She wants to be responsible for her actions and she wants to thrive as a writer because creativity is a God given gift she mustn't trash like that, creativity is her life and her God given mandate that she must carry on. Is work demanding for her? Yes it is. Is life demanding for her? Yes it is. Does she doubt her abilities in most situations? Yes she does, almost every time. Does it feel like unseriousness is slowly creeping in? Yes she definitely does but she wants to work, she wants to thrive, she wants to shine, no she has to shine! She has to glow brighter than the brightest of stars! 

So here is Adetola's apology to herself and everyone who still thinks she's worth listening to.

Hey there,

It's been a little too long a time.

2024 was supposed to be the year of consistency and big things but I've been slowing myself down by immersing myself in so many things at a time that I forget what God has given me to do and what my passion is. Creative writing came as a second nature to me since I was a child, I wrote a lot and created scenarios a lot; my mother was the first to notice. We had this chart of words and their opposites each set with pictures depicting those words, looking at those pictures and words brought forth a new story every time and Mother smiled brightly on those days. I grew up and wrote plays, unfinished and unpublished till today😂😂. I can hear my younger self laughing at me for saying I'll finish this story every time I started a new one but writing was something I couldn't do without, even two lines meant a lot to me on the days I randomly belted them out. I'm not perfect but I want to write the perfect imperfections that you are supposed to read; on days you are happy, on days you are sad, on days you are melancholic, on days you feel high and everyday you wake up because I want to keep that smile on your face most importantly on my mother's face because she believes so much in my writing and I'm grateful for her every time. 

So I'm sorry for cutting your expectations short every time. I want to do better by you, I want you to smile at everything I write because that's what fuels my resolve and on the days I write about sadness, I hope to reach out to the pain inside of you, wishing you can let go of it without any hitch. I'd like to begin a journey of 7 days of consistency but it'll not be on the blog, a mailing list, yes you heard right; a mailing list even if it's on recipient I get, I want to give that person 7 days of my heart's song without break and I would love it if you were that person.

Thank you for listening to me always even though I'm always available. My love now and always, Adetola❤️.

I hope her request is granted. Adetola will be better, she'll come out stronger and undefeated because God is in this now and always.🙂